The Universe is Trying to Tell Me Something

I’m sitting in some other teacher’s fourth grade class as a sub. It’s a short time I am here, the students are at recess, and I’ve come to the realization that I may never teach full time. Sure, right now I’m working full time as a sub, but that long term or permanent position is always out of reach. Most recently I lost out on a position I am highly qualified for and was told it was because the principal thought another person would be a better fit, BUT if I need a recommendation he would be happy to give me one. Not even a few hours later I hit him up on it and he says he needs more time seeing how I teach before writing one… Okay, so he has enough info on my teaching to not hire me for ONLY the rest of the year but not enough to write the recommendation he offered … hmm.

What I am learning in my district is, if you are a great, flexible substitute principals are reluctant to hire you and remove you from the much needed sub pool. This is not the first time I’ve been in a building where they LOVE me as a sub but hire outside of the sub pool for positions I can easily fulfill.

So what does this have to do with being an author? This blog is, after all, about me as an author, right? Well, I also have recently been hounded by you fans to finish Changes, or to start Cesair’s Chronicles. My author email has also been receiving messages related to the writing industry, but are some form of spam. To me, this says my books are worth while and getting noticed, even by websites associated with reading and writing.

What these events boil down to is me seeing that the universe is telling me I should write. Sure, I’m a good teacher. I’ve had parents tell me they want me teaching their children. I’ve had kids of all ages tell me I’m awesome and the best teacher they know. However, I don’t tend to fit a lot of the status quo. I don’t hold back information. I have VERY high expectations. I believe all students’ thoughts and beliefs are important and should be shared and heard, especially when they differ. And, I firmly believe science is THE most important thing in school and NOTHING in science should be held back, no matter the age. These beliefs put a wedge between me and most educators–hint to why our schools are struggling in America– because they don’t think this way. Most teachers won’t go near evolution, usually for personal reasons.

Well universe, I’m listening. More time will be devoted to writing and less on me worrying if I will ever fit into a rigid mold which is afraid to change. Personally, I’d rather fit in the erotic/romance/sci fi writer mold. 😉


Wear vs. Were (capitalized) and my Singular Battle

Okay, so I knew this would be an issue when I decided to go against the grain and make the shortened version of werewolf wear instead of Were, but I thought you all might like an explanation and may possibly want to join me in my battle. My reason for choosing wear is mainly for readability. If you come across a sentence where a were-animal of sorts is shortened the use of the word Were doesn’t read right, your brain does not pronounce it as wear which makes the reader re-read the sentence. My second reason is just that it makes sense. No one uses the original pronunciation anyways, which did sound like were in front of the word wolf, and shortening it to wear verbally in movies and TV is common now, and that’s fine. Why, might you ask. Well, think of it this way: a werewolf, werecat, wererat, and so on, are people who are changing into that particular animal. In that sense you can say they are wearing the skin of the animal they are changing into. Thus, wear makes more sense. BOOM! I win. lol
Now, who will join me in the literary battle to change Were to wear so reading our favorite books about wears will make more sense? You know you want to 😉

Then, Than and The End of The Sentence

*Updated December 09 2014

So, previously this post stated something I thought was correct, but as I’ve discovered recently I was wrong. Yet again the written English language has fudged my bucket–as I like to say–by changing a rule for a special reason. Think of that i before e thing, it’s a rule that often doesn’t fit.

In the case of then and than, it doesn’t matter what it’s meaning is, you only use then at the end of a sentence. Also, it is considered poor grammar to do so since it’s ending a sentence in a preposition but any good writer knows dialogue does not always follow proper grammar rules. All in all, the examples below are modified for correctness and the only way to know if it should be then, as in a point in time, or than, as in “instead of,” is if a coma is used. If a comma is there you should “hear” than in your mind.

“Dinnertime is at eight.”
“At eight? I guess I’ll eat my chicken then.”

“We are having hamburgers for dinner.”
“I don’t like hamburgers. I guess I’ll eat my chicken, then.”

Well folks, there it is. Sorry for the previous mistake but I’m still learning, as we all are. Once again, the written English language screwed me but at least I’m strong enough to notice my mistakes. Sadly, now I need to fix them. lol!

The Block

I’ve hit it, the writer’s block. I’d love to scream, “Oh, whoa is me!” but that would get me no where and bore me to tears.  Personally, I find the block not so bad. It’s like your brain telling you a small vacation is in order. What I tend to find is the time lets me clear my mind and something even better than what I had planed sprouts up. This time I’m sure some poor reviews have hindered my flow–I should never read reviews :/–but either way my writing hiatus has begun. I think I’ll take this time to work and play a video game lol!


So when looking for stuff on the inter-webs I found a site that is like those freelance bid sites I have seen before. I like this one though because the stuff starts at $5. In order to spread my name out there and help budding indie authors, or folks who want to be an author but need a bit of help, I have put up a few ‘gigs’ on fiverr. One is nuts but will be fun. I am offering to write up to 10,000 words of your idea for only $5! Now, it won’t be no fancy, epic work. This would be a first-run, no edit rough draft someone can build on. If the person likes what they get though they can edit and publish under their own pen name with just a thank you to me, no note why, just a thanks, in the acknowledgements. The other two ‘gigs’ I’m offering is conversion for publication to Smashwords or Amazon. They are both $5 each too and will be a quick way to make a buck or two lol.

Check out the short story offer below and make your won gig if you want 😉


Sometimes it’s all worth it … and hey, a free book!

My aching fingers, my aching bottom. After putting Coming Home up I noticed, after downloading and reading on my iPad, there were still LOOOOOTS of errors. FML, right? Well, lesson learned. I need to upload my books on Smashwords then immediately download them to edit. I have to read them in iBooks while I have my laptop open to make the edits. Time consuming? Yes. I’ve read Coming home for edits like eight times now … ugh. But, now I know the process even though I’m sure there are still some errors. Reading as a reader makes it much easier to see those errors, but as the author I will not find them all. As an indie author who is poorer than poor and just starting out, this is my only option since I can’t afford editors at this point in the game.

So, after drudging through and editing, I’m hoping for the last time on my end, I decided to see if there has been any feedback on the near done book since it’s been technically out for a week or whatever now. I’m happy to say someone still loved it and is looking forward to the next 😀 One post like that on Facebook was exactly what I needed after a long day of editing Annan’s first book. Thank you Laura. Having you as a new fan, and seeing that post, really made my week. You rock!

Thanks all for the read,



Oh, and if you want to read Annan’s first book it is free:

Shameless promotion

Okay, okay. So, usually I keep the whole read-my-book crap off of my blog but this time I’m breaking my rule. Smashwords is having a site-wide sale and I have added Amelia and Lucius’s story to the promotion. It is FREE for the month of July. At checkout enter the code SW100 and the book is yours free. This is only good at Smashwords so you have to download the book from there. Click the link below and tell your friends. I love this vampire romance and I hope you do too.

Good to Know

Until this morning I had never heard of The Elements of Style, and I can now say I’m glad I never had. Having graduated with honors you can see why I’m glad I’ve never encountered this misinformed piece of text used by many who should burn it. Hater much? Yes. Oh, why might you ask? Well, according to the text those last few lines were incorrect. In researching the validity of the “little book,” as it is referred to by some, after having read it, I found a significant group of haters out there. According to one article the authors of the book were grammatically illiterate and many of their examples went against well established literature of their time. It was a good read so I included a link to it below.

Now don’t get me wrong, some advice was good in it. Gems such as “omit needless words” was good. However, many suggestions were downright wrong or written in a way which contradicted the advice the author was giving. What really got me was the fact even the newest edition had antiquated advice in it, like spelling tomorrow as to-morrow. Who does that?

So, to anyone who writes or edits using this archaic book, put it back on the shelf with the other outdated tomes and get a new bible. Might I suggest The Chicago Manual of Style which many US manuscript editors use? It might read like what it is, a manual, but the advice you get is solid and won’t make you sound like an illiterate buffoon in your writing.

Oh, I get it now

In my mind I have been feeling this churning; things are brewing it seems. Which is odd, considering I have spent the better part of the last two days sleeping…of course, my creative flow might have had something to do with that. Either way, when I am not sleeping I am in a fog, a strange funk of something, and I can feel the characters coming back to life. It’s sort of this strange reverse zombification, or like a space explorer waking from a years long cryosleep, and in this awakening questions of my readiness have been arising.
When this happens I like to skim tips and tricks, read a book, and generally get a feel for where I should go by looking at where others have been, and in doing that today I had an epiphany of sorts. Bogging myself down with all this you should you shouldn’t stuff I read online, ripping through BS I find in iBooks, or with wondering how well received my work will be when things like Fifty Shades of Grey is popular–and for proper author etiquette I will keep my opinion about that fan fiction, because that is what it is, to myself–does just that, bogs me down. Before, I had thought feeling-out my place in the literary world was what I should do, but trying that today has caused me to feel less encouraged to write and has actually been clearing the necessary fog of creation from my mind.
Lucky for me, I recognized what was happening as I was reading a tyrannical rant on Twilight. I thought, “I don’t want to be this kind of writer who spends more time complaining about how others write, or telling others how to write. I just want to write.” Oh, and trust me. I’ve gone off on some Nazi like rants in reviews. Over use of the word “that” eats at me when I read, as well as when people tell you what is happening instead of using descriptive language, so there have been times I lay into someone who has obvious fake reviews to beef reader interest. Am I proud of these moments of weakness? No, I’m not, but they’ve happened and I’m sure they will happen again. As for now, I can see how this behavior has added to my writers block instead of clearing it. The fog is good, I want it there. Maybe this little eye opener will help and the writing train will bore full steam ahead. It seems that is where I am headed, and I am happy for it. Now I just need give in to the urge to start dragging my laptop around with me wherever I go.

Meh and, yeah, whatever.

So I haven’t written on my computer in a while, but I have been carrying around a pad of paper which I’ve been hand writing Ariel in–yeah, so not looking forward to transferring THAT bad boy–so writing has been meh for me. It’s all still there, I can hear the conversations and I know this long sequence of events…but maybe that in itself is where the problem lies. I see this huge road for Annan’s book series, as well as one for my first erotica, Lizzy’s Lesson, and on those roads are offshoots of other stories as well as full detours for work, and kids, and life in general. So now I’m looking at these HUGE stories and am getting anxiety over it. Should I continue and write when I can? Should I sacrifice family and work to write more? Should I throw in the towel and not write at all unless it’s lesson plans and notes to school? These are some of the thoughts rolling through my head and I get all, “yeah, whatever,” about it. I love when writing isn’t a chore, when it flows and comes out faster than my hands can hit the keys, not when I’m all meh about it and I have to shove each letter out like I’m passing multiple kidney stones. 

So, here is where I’m at, and no I’m not throwing in the towel but I am scared of how huge the task seems and I don’t understand how other indie authors are able to put out a book a week. Do they do nothing but write? No kids, no significant other, no work, no life, just words–and not even that good of words–flowing forth twenty-four-seven? It’s mind boggling to think of. Lucky for me small things show me I should keep going, no matter how slow the progress, and never give up. For instance, a silly quiz saying I should be a writer, or the fact I still get consistent downloads on what I consider mediocre work. Those small things help keep me moving forward and as long as I take it one step at a time eventually I will see the end of that road, even if it is years from now.