Recently I have gone back to work, which is great for the family’s finances but not so great for my writing. Before working I would write 6-8 hours a day, but now I can’t seem to find a single hour. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my career. I am one of the few people in the world who can say they do not feel like they are at work when they are working; I am blessed in this sense. But, what about my writing?
Writing never felt like work, it’s more like an addition. When I don’t write I get bitchy and irritable. When I do write I want to write more, I hovel away and ignore everyone, completely absorbed in the world I’m creating. This has been a point of contention for me as well since no one seems to understand how much I feel the need to write…but, that is a blog for another day.
For today, for now, how do I find my balance? How do I work my great, fun career and feed my addiction? Some may say, “Write at work, on break.” But, I can not and will not write romance in an elementary school—I may be addicted to writing but I love my job and a school is no place for literary smuttery. When I went back to work I thought I could just write at night, but after 8 hours of working, helping three kids with homework, then cooking dinner I’ve found I am too exhausted to pen a single sentence.
So, grumbles and sighs, I need to play the balancing act. I was able to write all day yesterday but I didn’t get to on Saturday, that other point of contention got in the way and my whole Saturday was usurped by my mother. I did take today off—subbing allows for a lot of freedom—to catch up on chores and to write but I can’t take too many days off, I have to work.
Looking on the bright side, though, it has only been a week and as more of my books hit the e-shelves I will be able to write more and use subbing as a way to generate extra income. Until that day, it will be slow going and books will take longer to get out because I will not sacrifice quality and I also won’t sacrifice my job. It’s all about balance and I know I can do it. Besides, why can’t I have everything in life? The answer is: I can.